God is Good at His Job

Tonight was my last night of Bible study for the Jonah study (there is another session next week but I will miss it due to parent/teacher conferences). And, man, did I need to hear what the message was tonight. The Scripture was Jonah 4. If you are familiar with the book of Jonah, this is when Jonah throws a tantrum. This is when God ends up asking him, "Do you have right to be angry?"

Priscilla Shirer said several things that really hit home with me. One of the points is that - even when we don't understand what He is doing or if it isn't what we wanted - God is good at His job. We question Him when our pride takes a hit. When we don't get what we want or think we deserve. I personally struggle with the praying that God's will be done when what I really mean is - here is my plan, please sign off on it and bless my endeavors.

And she also mentioned one other thing that I had to seriously consider. When you get to the verses where God is asking Jonah if he has a good reason to be angry, she brought up this question: If he never does anything else for you, hasn't He already done enough? I know I am blessed. I am approximately 3 weeks away from having this baby. But, y'all, I was angry when I wasn't getting my way. And even though I have a beautiful, wonderful little girl, I wasn't satisfied that God had done enough for me. How terrible is that? How selfish and self-absorbed to think that with all the mountains of blessings, God had let me down. And yet that was what I thought. And I wonder, when I want a third child, if I have to go down the same road, will those same yucky thoughts and emotions overtake me? I hope not, but I have seen the ugly side of me (and it is really ugly) and I am not sure.

The moral of the story is this, I suppose. I am going to try very hard to be appreciative of what I have been given rather than to focus on what I don't have or what want has not been credited to me. He has done enough. He absolutely has done enough.