The Final Countdown

Today I am 36 weeks. We are (in theory) in the last month of this process. I go to the doctor tomorrow. I don't know if he will check me or not, but I wouldn't be surprised. And to be perfectly honest, I don't really care. No matter whether I am dilated or not, I will continue to work and shop and function as usual. Until there is pain or water breaking, I will carry on. So we'll see what happens tomorrow.

We still don't have a name picked out. We are probably pretty settled on a boy name, but I am not 100% sold yet. The girl name is still up in the air. We redid the list and basically came up with the same names we had had before. With the same problems as before. We have one name we both like but can't agree on a middle name to go with it. We have a name we like but it is too popular for my taste. And Jillian and I have a name we like that Nathan doesn't. I refuse to take it off the list and am kind of hoping he will give in after I have given birth. I wouldn't be surprised if Nathan and Jillian get to give the "It's a _________!" announcement without a name.

I have psychoanalyzed myself a little. I have been so unenthusiastic about the names on our list. I have not been in much of a hurry to get the stuff together that needs to get put together. I have been indecisive about what we need or don't need. Or what I would like to have. And I have finally said out loud, "I can't make myself believe this is real." But that is kind of where I am. I know it is silly. If you have seen me, there isn't any doubt. I feel the baby moving. It is taking up more than its allotted space - just like dad. And yet I find myself thinking that until this baby is here, at home, fine and healthy, it just doesn't seem like it is truly happening. So there you have it, my version of what is going on in my head.

Enough of the yucky talk...I did get the bedding stuff put on last night. I have washed the picture outfits. I have even made a list for the bag. I haven't packed it yet - I just use too much of that stuff daily. If I have a list, I can throw those things in a bag quickly. So I got that done. I have a couple of other things to do that shouldn't be a big deal. I do have to speak to a policeman about our car seat. If that needs to be replaced, I think we can do that Friday night. And another load of laundry - and that's it. So we are pretty close to be ready.

On a funny note. Yesterday I had pulled my cami up so that my belly was exposed. I told Jillian I thought I might just go around like that from now until the baby comes. She looked at me and grinned and said she didn't think that would be a good idea. When I asked why not, she stared at me for several seconds and then said (tentatively), "That wouldn't be appropriate." Yea!! She know inappropriate from appropriate when it comes to dress. Hopefully that will stick.