27 Weeks

Have I mentioned that I can't believe I actually take pictures of myself being pregnant - and put them online? There are very few pics of me being pregnant with Jillian. I don't really remember avoiding them. I just think that I got big mama pregnant in about September and she was born before the holidays, so there just wasn't a lot of picture taking going on. But I definitely did not willingly and regularly take pictures of myself. And, to be perfectly honest, I can't really explain why I am doing it now. That said, here I am at 27 weeks!! I am in the last trimester now. 3 months from now, we could have our baby here. Could being the key word. The frustration of not knowing when the child is going to arrive is almost more than I can bear. I love not knowing the gender. We get to be surprised. Everyone else gets to have the Ohhhh! moment. And I know lots of people that say, "I am just too big of a planner to not know the gender." But, see, I really am too big of a planner to not know when to the expect the arrival. I feel like I need to know when to alert a substitute. I have to have everything laid out and ready to go for that substitute. My house needs to be clean. And I always want clean sheets when I come home from being gone. These are the things that drive me crazy - not a gender thing. And I have no control over any of that. And you would think I would know that better than most since Jillian was born early - and we had not even considered that has a possibility. But I just kind of wish that God would send a notice at some point that says, "Just to let you know, this date needs to be reserved for baby arrival." Just guessing He is not going to accommodate me on that one.