Tuesday, January 17, 2012

A Heavy Heart

Warning: Vague post ahead. I am not ready to divulge the happenings that have led to the post, but I wanted to share a few thoughts.

Life sometimes sucks. Some surprises are good and others are terrible. I have spent my day in prayer, sadness, despair, and anxiety. I have more questions than I have answers right now, and I hate that. I am not good at that. I am a planner. I always know what I am going to do next and usually the next several steps after that. Today I have been put into a position where none of that is possible. And on top of that, I don't understand the "whys" in this situation.
I will tell you that everyone is healthy and fine. I have tried to remember that today as I was reeling. My family is healthy. And my family is intact. In today's world I feel like I need to make that clear. My husband and I love each other very much and are in a beautiful place in our relationship.
Some prayers that might be lifted up on our behalf - for God to move quickly to find a resolution in this matter, for wisdom and guidance as we will face some uncertain times, and for daily reminders that God was not surprised by this and He is in control, and for us to have joy in this trial (I am getting ready to start a Bible study on James in a couple of weeks, so I am trying to get prepared). And thanks in advance for those prayers.

4 comments:

Jen said...

I thought you seemed awfully quiet at lunch. Prayers going up.

Kimberley said...

sorry to hear this, i'll be praying. the lord won't give us more than we can handle. stand close to the rock, he'll see you through it :)

Donna said...

praying for you!! if you ever need to talk I'm always here. love you all!

Holly said...

Thinking of you! Hope you get a quick and positive resolution to whatever is going on.