I have been abundantly blessed by all the moms in my life. God blessed me with the best mom in the world. I live everyday hoping that I can accomplish just a little of what she has when it comes to my child. I hope that Jillian respects me and has the love in her heart for me that I have for my own mother.
The good news is that I am surrounded by other people's mothers who are blessing me and also teaching me as we go along. I am learning that it is important to sit and be mom. I move around - a lot. Sometimes I just need to be Jillian's mom and play with her and listen to her - just because she is mine. I am learning (this one is especially slow) to be patient. She is five. And she is not me. I long to be a prayer warrior for my child. Sure, I pray for her, but I want to spend even more time doing that. Pray for her decisions, her salvation, her choices, her husband, her attitude.
I have watched all the beautiful mothers in my life and here are a few things I see: Special needs puts more emphasis on the special. Savor every moment because you never know what is coming next. Teach important lessons and don't focus on the materialistic side of life. Appreciate the differences in every individual. Loving my husband is a gift - not just to myself or to him but to Jillian. She needs that reassurance. Brace yourself for the difficulties because they will come. But love through them - not just on the other side of them.
So to all the moms who are touching my life and helping me to be a better mom tomorrow than I was today - Thank you. I need you. Your children need you. The world needs more people like you.
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